--- title: Posts url: 'https://www.merryquinn.com/posts' markdown: 'https://www.merryquinn.com/posts.md' date: '2026-09-26' description: 'RSS / ATOM' --- # Posts ### [RSS](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts.rss) / [ATOM](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts.atom) 22nd May 2026 ### [Marionette](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/marionette) ![PXL_20260320_175830582.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/e/a/5/e/4/ea5e4bba0fed00b0d64131aa9cb7d812240e5838-pxl20260320175830582.webp) I used to be a puppet, and now I'm an automaton. For the longest of time, I felt like life was just happening to me. I was going with the flow. Not because I wanted to drift, but because I had no other option. I never had any hobbies because everything felt like too much effort. I know... what a... [ADHD](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:ADHD#body-wrapper) 13th Mar 2026 ### [Spent fuel](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/spent-fuel) ![5881974917970988414.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/c/7/7/9/2/c7792830c6088456813d0a066c63897c3bee653b-5881974917970988414.webp) I feel like a spent fuel rod from a nuclear reactor. Still technically full of energy, but unstable, overheating, and slowly running out of stamina and sanity. Ever since Atomoxetine stabilised my brain chemistry, I can just *do shit* now. It’s still such a surreal feeling, and I’m feeling a bit... [ADHD](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:ADHD#body-wrapper) [venting](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:venting#body-wrapper) 15th Feb 2026 ### [Default superpowers](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/default-superpowers) ![PXL_20260213_171957904.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/5/d/e/0/5/5de0590fd5e4e40fc4dcb81cd9ca9f24a993f456-pxl20260213171957904.webp) This post is a continuation of [this one](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/my-first-psychiatric-appointment) where I talked about what my first psychiatric appointment was like. I highly recommend reading it first before you dive into this one because it contains a lot of context. ## Day 1 My first day on Atomoxetine was... definitely something. The memory of th... [ADHD](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:ADHD#body-wrapper) 1st Feb 2026 ### [My First Psychiatric Appointment](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/my-first-psychiatric-appointment) ![PXL_20260128_104450318.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/e/c/1/d/7/ec1d7e6ea005f7a54552a5bd3e218379f939b85b-pxl20260128104450318.webp) As I promised in my article about [sleep](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/sleep), today I will be talking more about my ADHD. # Prologue I'll start with a little bit of backstory. The first time I started **really** thinking there might be something genuinely wrong with me was the day I graduated high school. I have no fucking idea how... [ADHD](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:ADHD#body-wrapper) 1st Jan 2026 ### [My New Year's resolutions for 2026](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/2026-resolutions) ![PXL_20251224_154100244.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/8/d/5/d/f/8d5df2978bf6275327f440a341bfe33e50b504c0-pxl20251224154100244.webp) New Year's resolutions are such a weird thing, aren't they? I think the majority of people who set them are doing so purely out of guilt and not an actual desire to improve or change something about themselves. Personally, I never set them before, but I mainly attribute that to the fact that I hav... 25th Dec 2025 ### [Perfectionism](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/perfectionism) ![PXL_20251209_153613249.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/e/5/0/2/2/e5022912925145e016c3f376f7cca3486d0a8f8c-pxl20251209153613249.webp) I've heard many people describe themselves as perfectionists. Funnily enough, when you get to know them, you oftentimes learn that their lives aren't exactly *perfect*. This might lead one to think they're lying about their nature to make themselves sound more interesting, but I'm actually incline... 16th Sep 2025 ### [Sleep](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/sleep) ![PXL_20250916_185543587.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/e/2/0/b/9/e20b9a8793d9a9c2798ea9ed1ff5cb825a13a6a0-pxl20250916185543587.webp) I never thought how fixing my sleep schedule could improve my life so much. It isn't an exaggeration to say I'm a different person now. It all began sometime at the end of the last month. I was anticipating my regular check-up by my GP, which has been postponed like 4 times because either they had... [ADHD](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:ADHD#body-wrapper) 1st Aug 2025 ### [Hunter's brain](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/hunters-brain) ![IMG20240611103757.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/b/6/9/2/4/b69245fb6139d58261fefd2b4cda6ab9d2e18296-img20240611103757.webp) I've been suspecting neurodivergence in myself for some time now. My brain is very different to that of my peers or people in general I've met. It feels like running Linux in the world of macOS. Many of the core components and libraries are the same, but everything else is entirely different. The... [ADHD](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/tag:ADHD#body-wrapper) 12th Jul 2025 ### [You don't have to change](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/you-dont-have-to-change) ![PXL_20250102_065036830.webp](https://www.merryquinn.com/images/e/f/a/a/8/efaa8c5c1857d93b1703931af16f3577cd369d97-pxl20250102065036830.webp) I think the single scariest thing in this world, this universe, this plane of existence is the fact that you don't have to change. Seriously, you can keep repeating the same mistakes, you can keep reliving the same lessons over and over again. That is the **blessing** and the **curse** of having a f... --- ## Navigation - Previous: [Home](https://www.merryquinn.com/index.md) - Next: [Music](https://www.merryquinn.com/music.md) - Children: - [My New Year's resolutions for 2026](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/2026-resolutions.md) - [Default superpowers](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/default-superpowers.md) - [Hunter's brain](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/hunters-brain.md) - [Marionette](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/marionette.md) - [My First Psychiatric Appointment](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/my-first-psychiatric-appointment.md) - [Perfectionism](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/perfectionism.md) - [Sleep](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/sleep.md) - [Spent fuel](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/spent-fuel.md) - [You don't have to change](https://www.merryquinn.com/posts/you-dont-have-to-change.md)